Day 8

Maddie did ok today. Had a pretty rough night last night, maintaining her blood pressure was a big problem. This can be expected though after surgery. Had our hopes up that she would really rally today, but she was just too worn out. As we left tonight though, she was much more stable and was even starting to perk up. I thought the hard part was getting through the surgery but I'm learning that the hours/days following are the scariest. The bottom line is her heart was just tinked off. Today was very nerve wracking and the tiredness has set in for me. I am no longer running on adrenaline. We're not in the clear with her yet which makes everything more upsetting. But our highlight for the day was our boys came. Aunt Kerry and Cindy brought the over. So great to see them, hug and kiss them and listen to their little voices. It's been so hard not having them around everyday, since I'm always with them 24/7. They'll be here now which is a nice "distraction" from ICU life and we're looking forward to having Easter with them. I had a rough time visiting with anyone today...loved having my aunt here but am really lost for words. My mind is constantly on Maddie hooked up to all of those machines so simple conversation is difficult for me. Praying that Maddie will really come around by then as well- very difficult seeing her this way.